FRANK SINATRA SAID...

" The most important thing in life, baby, is to never be afraid of anyone or anything. "

I totally agree with this. I mean there have been times when I could have jolted to the door. Instead I pushed through and keep my head up high only to end up walking out with the prize. When people try to intimidate your end result it is up to you to not allow it. It is up to you to keep sight of the goal.When someone says no to you it is always only because of there own insecurity.

Long lost friend.

I dont know what happened to me two years ago. It all began when I started dating Ethan Bates. Well heck two weeks before that I had scored a 98% on my mid term exam and was hanging out with one of the most respected girls in class. We had so much fun together. She was the introduction to what I would call a good friend. I mean after partying with the best of the night scene I had made it out of that barbade of mongrols and right into the hands of the upper class in an unfair amount of time. I guese because thats who I truly am. It was natural for me to do well in school and such social settings, that of class. She was the nanny for one of the wealthiest families in town. Jen and David Metts. They owned a mall in louisville and a real estate empire to die for. When I first met Mrs. Metts she was walking through her mansion with a martini in one hand, a cigarette, and a row of diamonds around her neak. Kelly bragged, "Only do you run around in a robe with a cigarette in one drink in other and thirty thousand on your chest". Kelly had a good sense of reality and humor. Mrs. Metts was extreemly gracious and sweet to me. I thought there may be some tension from her at the thought of me being Kelly's new BFF. I suppose she was to classy for that because by the next night I was sleeping over her house for a slumber party chasing ghost's on our iphones. Yes, I said it. chasing gohst! Lol! Thats what Mrs. Jen Metts enjoyed doing the most. There is an application called ghost radar which I belive Mrs. Metts and Kelly still are infatuated with to this day. Kelly gratifiying Jen and Jen, well, she gets into it. She not only believes her Manor is haunted but knows it. I cant argue, I did see some pretty strange stuff going on in her hallway. That was the night I showed Jen and Kelly my vintage diamond ring. Ethan had just given it to me. It was every bit of 1 carat. Maybe one and a half. It was a floating diamond made by some special designer. I was so impresssed at his taste. He knew I had a yearning for the finer things in life. he kew how to seduce me is what I believe it boils down too. I mean I felt like a princess when he put that ring on my finger. It belonged to his late grandmother. He did not propse which it could have totally been for, it was just a promise ring. It was a floating diamond with small diamonds all around the center peice. Jenn and Kelly loved vintage jewelry, and they are who I picked up the love from. So I knew they would appreciate it. We sat on the edge of Kelly's beautifully made pillowtop bed as we chattered, ohhed, and awwed over my diamond. With puckered lips and sassy jaunts of our neaks we exchanged kowledge of such peices of vinatge jewelry designs. We didnt lust too long for we had a gohst hunt to finish. We all crept of to her son Andrews room. Thats where the most activity came from in my experience. He is autistic. I think the gohst have some kind of relationship maybe even understanding with him. Being they both have communication disabilities. It is unfourtunate that mason was sick like that. Autistic I mean. He was perfectly normal untill two weeks after his immunization shots. He went from saying "daddy!" on the back yard swing to rocking back and forth in front of thier living room television screen speechless. Two weeks later! I was appauled when Jen shared the story with me. It was heart breaking to say the least. Can you imajine your son going from a innocent loving healthy boy to a near vegtable withing days? Can you imajine the guilt that Jen must have felt. After all, her closest influences, her family, had already scorned her for having him so early. Claiming she was too young to have a child. And now this. How would she, how did she explain her new situation to those who were called family whom wanted to hurt her about the pre mature choice to have a child at twenty three. Only to be ridiculed and embarrassed. Shamefully young and now helpless. Well thats why Kelly was there. Jen would not be helpless for long after meeting Kell Bell. Kell Bell, Kelly, was and still is Masons teacher. While she is going to school to be a ocupational therapist she gets daily hands on experience with Mason. She is good with him. However she is expectant and pushes him to do his best, she is a no excuses kind of woman. I miss her dearly. She was so bright and enthusiastic about life. I will never forget when she brough me over flowers. I called her crying about Ethan. I think thats what it was. I cant quite remeber why I was upset. However she ended up at my door step with a bundle of hand picked flowers from her garden spun together in a glass cylinder vase, a very stylish flower vessle. I opened the door to a little Irish girl with big blue eyes and a cheeky smile. I always though Kelly was so pretty. She had great hair and teeth. She took well care of herself. She was always in something stylish and preppy. Her favorite designer is and was Rachel Zoe. Who is known for being funky and feminine. Edgy could be a word, although Kelly would probually prefer lacey. The last time we had had a bon fire she wore a black tank with a leapord bra underneath. I noticed immediately as I have a fasination with leapord print myself. We had amazing bonfires that winter. She had a pit in her backyard that was surrounded by tulips and every beautiful flower you could imajine. There was also a cazebo which gave it an ultimate feleing of home. It reminded me of my grandmothers farm. She had simiallar taste as I did. So anyways she brought those flowers over to me and we cried together. That moment there was one that I will never forget. I felt warm inside like never before. Thats what a friend is supposed to be like loving caring and thoughtfull. Proactive and sincere. It must have been every bit of ten o' clock when I told her what happenend over the phone. Can you imagine her out in her garden picking flowers at night trying to curb the rose thorns and then stepping out in the night while piling them in the car ? That is what a true frind dose, they make sacrifices to help you in a time of need. And smile the whole way through. Now think about it. No one wants to drive across town in the middle of the night to deliver a flower. Okay. She did it for me.

I must continue this latter. Keep in touch you hear. You will love what is next!